Haunted

12 years on, and it still feels raw,
The memories haunt me, cut to the core
The memories I have, leads me to shame
I’m sick of carrying this, carrying this pain

The sounds of their laughter, still haunts me now
I wish I could forget, but I just don’t know how
The smell of their aftershave, still fresh in mind
All the red flags I missed, I was so blind

I was used for amusement, I was like a game
I still feel the guilt, I feel I’m to blame
My virginity was taken, in the worst possible way
The old me died, died on that fatal day

Written by Danae Brandon Aka wordiness24

New year, New pain

The darkness is here, I can’t see the light
It’s all getting too much, too much to fight
I’ve been struggling lately, nobody knows
It’s been a while since, I’ve felt this low

My anxiety has reared, its ugly head
Making me edgy with feelings of dread
I’m sick of constantly, not being able to breathe
I feel so trapped, I just want to be freed

My depression has also come crawling back
I’m clinging on desperate, to get back on track
It’s telling me I’m worthless, a disgrace with no hope
I don’t know what to do, or how to cope

So here’s to the new year, a new year of pain
Overcoming all this, that should be my aim
My strength is breaking, my resolve has gone
But I choose to muddle through, I will carry on


Written by Danae Brandon Aka wordiness24

Flashback

I live with the flashbacks everyday
I do what I can, to keep them at bay
Now I’m having to face them, completely head on
Im doing my best, my best to keep strong

The flashbacks they come thick and fast
I wish I knew how long they will last
The memories of that day, ingrained in my mind
I’m trying to feel better in anyway I can find

The emotions are raw, anger, fear and self blame
I feel the sadness, I feel the pain
Reprocessing these things cuts me deep
I’m told I am strong, but I feel weak

Written by Danae Brandon Aka wordiness24

30 day song challenge

Wow I can’t believe I’m actually 3 days behind 😂🙈 given it’s now past midnight. I really need to pull myself together and do these everyday. At least I get to make this post longer with 3 songs which is good.

So I’ve been doing the 30 day song challenge on here just for a bit of fun, I did it on my Instagram about a month ago but thought it would be cool to share it on here as well.

I love music of many different genres and I really enjoy sharing songs I like with others. It’s also a good thing to share as it gives my followers a chance to get to know me better.

So without further a do I will be doing Monday, Tuesday and now Wednesday’s songs in one post.

Day 13: A song you like from the 70’s

Dream on- Aerosmith (linked below if anyone wants to listen)

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=L9srmft6STc

Released in 1973, I first heard it when I watched a series called Cold Case, it was featured at the end of an episode and I loved it. I also recognised the fact that Eminem released a song called Sing for the moment it features the chorus of this song, I liked that song growing up, so it would stand to reason that I would like this song too. I love the lyrics, the melody and the guitar solos. This song makes me feel emotions mainly a touch of sadness purely based on the beginning of the song, especially with the lyrics but I do find myself kinda bopping to the song when it gets towards the middle to end. All in all a lovely song and 100% worth a listen.

Day 14: A song you’d love to be played at your wedding

Perfect- Ed Sheeran (Linked below)

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=2Vv-BfVoq4g

This song is just beautiful in every single way! I love Ed Sheeran anyway like his voice is amazing and he has released some amazing songs but I do have a soft spot for this song. I love the lyrics to this song, I find them very relatable as me and my partner met when we were still in our teens so I feel that this song describes our relationship well, hence why for me this would be a perfect wedding song if I was to ever marry him. This song is stunning and it’s up there with my top favourites. Definitely worth a listen for sure.

Day 15: A song you like that’s a cover by another artist

Toxic- Alex & Sierra (linked below)

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=zWlMSjAZOzk

This song was originally released by Britney Spears I loved the original and I love this version. Alex & Sierra won X Factor (the American version) in 2013, they auditioned with this song and I loved how different they made it to the original. They then went on to cover it properly and I absolutely love it. I love how they slowed it down, I love both of their vocals on the song as well, I think they sang it just beautifully. So for anyone who likes hearing covers this one is highly recommended.

30 day song challenge

So me being on time lasted long 😂 late yet again but means I can do two songs in one post.

This month I am doing the 30 day song challenge on here, I’ve already done it on Instagram but thought I’d repeat it and do it on here too.

I love music, all different types and I really like sharing songs with other people as well and it helps everyone get to know me better.

Day 11: A song you never get tired of

I bet you look good on the dance floor- Arctic Monkeys (linked below if anyone wants to listen)

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=uQNyTo4k_TA

This song is actually one of my all time favourite songs. I love how upbeat it is, I love songs with guitars, anything that has a nice guitar solo then I’m all over it! I love the sound it makes. I like the lyrics to this song and I just find that it’s a song that makes me feel good. I re-discovered this song last year and since then I can’t get enough of it. I highly recommend it if you’ve never heard it before.

Day 12: A song from your preteen years

All the things she said- Tatu (linked below)

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=8mGBaXPlri8

What can I say about this song? I remember listening to this when I was about 10 going on 11 did that make me a preteen? I pretty much peg it from ages 9-12 I’d say that’s preteen. Anyways I heard it on the music channel when I was about 10 and I instantly loved it! I loved the fast pace of the song and the voices of Tatu. I just find the song really catchy and I do occasionally listen to it. Not one of my all time favourites but I do like the song and it is worth a listen. I obviously loved it more back then but not as much now.

30 day song challenge

Yay I actually remembered to do it today 😂🙌🏻👏🏻

So this month I am doing the 30 day song challenge. I did it on my Instagram last month and thought it would be fun to do it on here aswell.

I love music, I love all different genres, voices, I love songs that are happy, sad, songs with meaning and songs that just make you feel good. I love sharing songs with others in the hopes that they love them as much as I do.

Day 10: A song that makes you sad

Cherry- Lana Del Rey (linked below, for anyone who wants to listen)

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=-yuBpUrvpLQ

Yep another Lana Del Rey song! I’m such a massive fan of her music. She makes me feel many emotions when I listen to her songs. This song isn’t what I would call majorally depressing, or even about anything that is really sad, however it does tug at me a bit. Her voice is so beautiful and haunting and then to match that you have the melody of the actual song thats slow and painfully beautiful. I feel that anyone going through a tough time in a relationship or anyone who’s going through the end of one, then this song would be relatable. This is up there with my favourite songs. If I had a top 10 in my mind I feel this song would be up there. It’s worth a listen and to anyone who does listen to it I hope you love it as much as I do.

30 day song challenge

Surprise, surprise I’m late again 😂 this month I am doing the 30 day song challenge. I did it on my Instagram last month but thought it would be fun to do it on here aswell.

I love music and I love sharing my favourite songs with others. I thought it would be good to share this as it will help you all get to know me better.

So as I said I’m late again so will be again sharing two songs, yesterday’s one and technically today’s as it’s now midnight!

Day 8: A song about drugs or alcohol

Heroin- Lana Del Rey (linked below, if anyone wants to listen to it)

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=KA1dUubMjQ0

I think everyone has established that I am a big fan of Lana Del Rey’s music. I love all her songs. This song actually pulled at my heart strings a little bit, the first time I heard it. I found it very relatable. My Dad is a heroin addict so this song I felt depicted addiction well. Like one of the lyrics “how it gave you everything and took your life away” this one line I found relatable in terms of my Dad. Not only that her voice is so hauntingly beautiful that I just get drawn into all her music. The melody of this song is just as beautiful as her voice, I just found it impossible not to love this song.

Day 9: A song that makes you happy

Gold- Byron Langley (linked below, if anyone wants to listen)

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=En0LJxAKdTw

So I’m not a massive fan of Byron Langley or anything but I do love this song. As I understand he’s a YouTuber, I haven’t ever watched any of his videos I only found this song because I watch Joe Sugg’s videos, he’s friends with Byron Langley and he had featured this song many times at the end of his videos. When I heard it I just found this song so catchy and it’s just a feel good song all round to be honest. It does make me feel happy as it’s upbeat when it gets to the chorus. It’s 100% worth a listen.

30 day song challenge

This month I am doing the 30 day song challenge. I did it on Instagram but thought it would be fun to do on here aswell.

I love music and I love sharing my favourite songs with others. As it’s now midnight I will be doing two in one post. So yesterday’s one and now today’s. I must remember to post one everyday before I get confused 😂

Day 6: A song that makes you want to dance

Pull up to mi bumper- Konshens ft J Capri (linked below, if anyone wants to listen)

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=3RFUEiqUhY4

So this song is not for everybody and I am surprised that I even like it. I saw it featured on one of my friends Instagram videos, she did a dance to it and it prompted me to listen to the song and I actually found myself enjoying it. On my Instagram I actually initially said Sean Paul- Temperature as one of the songs I like to dance to, but since hearing this song I’ve changed my mind. If I’m on a night out this kind of music or anything that’s R&B is what I most enjoy dancing to.

Day 7: A song to drive to

Old town road- Lil Nas X ft Billy Ray Cyrus (linked below if anyone wants to listen)

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=_ae5Ap77b7k

I love this song so much! As soon as I heard it, I fell in love with this song. I don’t drive but if I did, this song would 100% be played. I love the melody, I love the lyrics and I love the fact that it’s got a bit of a rap vibe and then you get Billy Ray Cyrus’ country voice coming into it with the chorus and one of the verses. I recommend this song to everyone. Definitely worth a listen.

30 day song challenge

This month I am doing the 30 day song challenge. I did it on my Instagram last month so thought it would be fun to do it on here.

I love music and love sharing my favourite songs with others aswell. I forgot to post yesterday’s one so will be doing yesterday’s and today’s one in one post.

Day 4: A song that reminds you of someone you’d rather forget.

Walk away- Christina Aguilera (Linked below, if anyone wants to listen)

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=cnuqv9R76Rk

This song actually means a lot to me. I find it’s a pretty personal song to me. It reminds me of when I was raped, so it reminds me of the boys who did that to me. It’s just some of the lyrics, I find it describes how I felt after it had happened.

I used to listen to it a lot after it happened to me as I found it very relatable. Not only that but Christina Aguilera has the most beautiful voice, and this song is simply beautiful. It’s 100% worth a listen.

Day 5: A song that needs to be played loud.

Blinding lights- The Weeknd (Linked below)

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=fHI8X4OXluQ

I love this song so much! I love the melody, I love dancing around to it just such a catchy, feel good song to listen to. I enjoy singing along to it aswell. It’s worth a listen for sure.